I’ve always suffered from being an impatient person. No matter how I struggled and prayed for patience, it alluded me.
Impatience took away my joy and filled me with frustration. The television remote would get out of sync, the computer would take too long to boot up, traffic would cause slowdowns making me late for appointments…the list goes on. These things annoyed me and I’d be filled with grumbling thoughts and tapping fingers.
Throughout my life I’ve been a work in progress. God gives me opportunities to test what I’ve learned about patience. Sometimes I fail. The Holy Spirit lets me know when I’ve failed and admitting my weakness is humbling as I vow to do better.
God uses our times of hardship to teach us. During my husband’s long illness, I had many times to learn about patience. Sometimes I failed.
Since his journey to heaven, God has continued to show me how to be a patient woman. I’m a slow learner, but every day brings me closer to accepting what I cannot change.
When I turned on my laptop this morning, it took a longer time than I wanted to boot up. Instead of sitting and being frustrated, I rinsed the breakfast dishes and turned on the burner under the teapot. When I returned to my seat at the table, the laptop was ready to use. A small victory over Satan’s temptation to darken my day.
A couple months ago, I blogged about some creature eating the tomatoes before they ripened. Yesterday I found two tiny, but perfect tomatoes waiting on the vine. Others are in the process of ripening. Perhaps I will get some of these, but even if I don’t, I count these two as a blessing for being patient.
Without patience, our hearts get hardened, our peace is stolen, and our friends and family suffer. Impatience is Satan’s tool…an effective one. We long for better, faster, more and it becomes an idol driving us forward and keeping us from enjoying what we already have. The important things in our life. Jesus, family, friends, shelter, food, love. Impatience sneaks into our hearts without our being aware and makes us grumpy, negative people.
“Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret–it only leads to evil. For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.” ~~Psalm 37:7-9