Mark 8:36-38 (NIV) “What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his Father’s glory with the holy angels.”
Cats don’t care what the world thinks of them. People do.
In reading a devotion today, I started to think how much I love the world and how much I love God. I thought back on times when I was in philosophical conversations with friends in the workplace. I had many opportunities to witness about Jesus and what changes He brought into my life, but many times I failed to speak up.
When I was a child, my self-esteem suffered. I sought love and rarely found it. My mother, I learned later, also had low self-esteem and she didn’t know how to express love. Instead she tended to push people away.
At thirteen when I gave my heart and soul to Jesus Christ and was baptized, I wasn’t afraid to witness to anyone who would listen. Except my mother. She never supported my Christian walk of faith when I was young. Afraid? Perhaps.
As I grew older, the world became more important to me than God. I wanted to please others. I wanted everyone to like me. I wanted to be loved. I forgot about how loved I really was by my heavenly Father. I forgot the sacrifice Jesus made for me because of love.
Today I am not afraid to speak out about my faith, about my God, about how Jesus changed my life. Yet, I wonder if I was faced with death if I didn’t renounce God, would I be strong enough to hold true to my belief? Or would I love life so much I would deny him as Peter did.
Perhaps at this stage of my life, I would die for Christ. I’m looking forward to my life in Heaven. Life away from the pain of earthly living. I know in Heaven I will have the love I so needed at various times in my life. Unconditional love. I’d like to think I’d be strong enough.