I had a diabetes pity party for myself yesterday. I shed a few tears.
For the past few months, I’ve pushed aside the reality of my disease. I fell into a comfortable pattern of ignoring good eating and exercise routines.
Routines can put you in a rut. Once I started working outside the home again, I found myself getting out of my regular eating times and craving fast foods because of the comfort they gave and because, quite frankly, I was being lazy. I stopped counting my carbs. I talked myself into believing I could eat what I wanted. I can’t.
My biggest issue is not having the support I need. I live alone. I have no one but me to be accountable to so it’s easy to accept the excuses I tell myself. And so I cried. I told God I was tired of being a diabetic and tired of living alone. Tired of being alone in my fight. And I cried some more.
Then I came to the computer, opened up my diabetes posts and read the last two I had posted about dealing with diabetes when you live alone. I had some good advice and realized the message I wrote was spot on. It gave me the insight to want to fight again.
And I prayed to God and told Him I was sorry for abusing the temple in which He lives. I asked for forgiveness and help. I admitted I couldn’t do this alone.
There is healing in prayer. In admitting our failures and asking for forgiveness and help. Mostly I thanked Him for being such a compassionate God, for loving me in spite of my failures, and for his mercies.
I spoke with two of my daughters and both are going to try and help me find good recipes. See, God sends help if we ask.
I do not have to fight diabetes alone. Neither do you. I wish I had a support group to meet with, but I don’t. There is one group which meets monthly at my hospital. In the winter, it will mean driving at night, which I try not to do, but I think I’ll go on Monday night anyway. I believe God will give me safe travels.
Do you need help, too? Maybe like me you need to stand and say out loud, Hello, I’m (your name) and I’m a diabetic!
I would love for you to share the challenges you have with this disease. Maybe we can be an online support group through my blog.
God bless you and help you in your fight!