Author's Life

Revealing the Introvert

This blog is personal and reveals the truth behind my introverted personality. There are times when I feel I don’t fit in. Usually this is when I’m in a social situation with people I don’t know, even though I might have close friends and family there as well. The talk and the laughter are rampant. People enjoying each other’s company. The more it abounds, the more I feel different. Why? This exhausts me. As an introvert, I need time to think about whatever is being discussed. I can put on an act! I can laugh, smile, nod, and once in a while say something appropriate. But it is emotionally exhausting. When these events come to a close, I embrace the idea of being alone, in my familiar surroundings. I need time to recover.

Writing is an outlet I seek. Why? This gives me time to think before adding words. Sometimes I look through my office window and just search for the right thoughts to convey. This isn’t a fast process, but a slow and steady flow. When I’m working on fiction writing, I absorb myself into an alternate universe and become someone new. Does part of my personality spill into the characters? I’m not sure, but it’s a possibility. I know I shed tears, feel deep emotions, and this is from the depth of myself, not fake.

I love rain. Rainy days allow me time to relax and think. I’m isolated in my safe cocoon. The likelihood of someone knocking on my door is minimal, so it is safe for me to escape into plotting a book, reading to embark into a different life, or turn to my hobbies.

Coloring is my favorite hobby. It is a creative endeavor which allows a lot of time to think about many different things in a quiet atmosphere. Sometimes I listen to an audiobook while I color. I love thinking about colors and choosing the right one to add life to the line art. This is comforting and restorative for me.

My life includes attending a weekly women’s small group Bible Study. I love these women. One of the hardest things I tackled was reaching out to a group of strangers and asking if I could join! I was warmly welcomed. I feel comfortable being with them while we discuss Jesus and share our needs for prayer. I love learning and the discussions which always reveal something worthwhile. But when it is time to leave my home and head off, I feel an urge to stay home. Why?

There is a danger of an introvert becoming afraid to venture out of their safety zone. I’m aware of this and when Satan uses this to tempt me, I have to stand up to him and remember God tells us we need to have relationships in our life to be fulfilled. Of course, I have my relationship with Him, but Jesus showed the importance of relationships with other people.

As I age and have become accustomed to living alone since my husband was called home to heaven, the introvert side of me has become more prevalent. Home is my place of safety. You might see me in a social situation and not realize I’m a true introvert, or you might think I’m reserved, or in the words of my younger days, “stuck up.” I’m not. I’m just a soul in an uncomfortable position, longing to be like you, and thinking about how I might do this.

Yes, I raised a family, and even stretched outside my comfort zone many, many times when I was younger. Making speeches to people I knew and perfect strangers. I worked as a supervisor to teams of people. Along with my husband, I taught dance moves and performed in rooms filled with strangers. He was my comfort zone and since he was a social extrovert, we complimented each other well.

I do enjoy the quiet hours spent in my little condo. Finnegan, my little cat, keeps me entertained when I’m not working (or thinking), and lets me have my quiet time while he naps. We, too, complement each other. I’m grateful God has provided this life for me. There have been years of learning and growing, and now this time is for enjoying my true personality. God knows me. He made me who I am. And I’m grateful.

Author's Life · hobbies · Senior Life

Taking a Break for Some Coloring

What a beautiful morning it is! The sun is shining, and the blue skies are clear. We’ve been having moderate temperatures during the day, which I so enjoy. I love letting the fresh air into my home and sitting on the front porch on sunny days. I Skype with my daughter on Friday afternoons, so am hoping to do that on the porch today.

I finished coloring a picture I’ve been working on for a few weeks. With the editing process on Katy’s Heart, I had little energy left to color. Since Amazon has both the ebook and paperback versions now available for purchase, I’m giving myself a brief break from writing to relax and color.

From Worlds Within Worlds by Kerby Rosanes

Since I had time left in the day, I decided to pull out a book and my Pitt Pastel pencils. I haven’t used this medium for coloring in a long time. It was fun to spend a couple hours playing with them and coloring this picture.

Fairy and Fantasy 2 by Christine Karron

Coloring is a creative outlet which relaxes me. I’m usually listening to an audiobook in the background. I’m giving myself three more days of relaxation before I get back to work on the nonfiction piece I’m writing as a legacy for my family, titled The Child I was. I will also be thinking about the next novel I’ll write, lining up the characters and plot in my mind before I begin the outlining process.

For now, I’m going to sign off and head to the grocery. I’m sure I’ll be shocked again by the rising prices of food. The price of gasoline is now over $5.00 USD per gallon where I live in Ohio. Praying for our country and all countries around the world.

Senior Life

Unexpected Breakdown

Saturday while I was doing laundry, I suddenly began to cry. Not just tears, but hard sobbing. I finished folding the clothes while I continued to sob, until I finally needed to lie on the sofa. I missed Templeton so much. But then I began to think of his brother and sister, who preceded him to Rainbow Bridge.

As the feeling of loss consumed me, it grew worse. Emotions of being without so many loved ones drew me deeper into depression. My dad and mom both gone, my husband, my son, my “bestest” friend and her husband (also a dear friend), and now all three of my sibling cats. My heart was burdened with loss and grief.

Throughout the day, I would burst into tears as I felt all alone. Usually something will trigger a small breakdown, but this was the worst I’ve experienced in many years. Life is not always smooth. There are hills and valleys. This was a sudden drop into a deep valley with steep hills on all sides. It was a time when I couldn’t find the words to ask God for help. It was a time to just call out to Jesus to help me and to recite Psalm 23.

Sunday was a better day. Rejoicing and praising God is greater than any medication. I had lunch after church with my best friend. We talked about life, the past, and laughed a lot. Awesome medicine. I spent the afternoon coloring.

And now it is Monday. Today I’ll begin working on formatting my soon-to-be released novel, Katy’s Heart. The sky is cloudy, but it is a pleasantly warm day with a nice breeze. I’ll be Skyping with another dear friend, also an author, this morning. We Skype every week, though we haven’t seen each other in person for a long time. Since we both have books in the publication stages, we are planning a get together soon.

The day is overcast, and a few raindrops just kissed my office window. I’m grateful for this day, grateful for every breath, every scent, and give praise to God for His healing in my time of need. I know I will be reunited with my loved ones one day. Our parting is temporary. I don’t know if I’ll see my furry babies in heaven, but I can hope. God created all animals, and I know there are horses in heaven.

Aging gracefully with God is an ongoing process for which I give thanks.

Author's Life · hobbies · Senior Life

Vacations, Relaxing Projects and Book Update

Writing this before bedtime. I’m so excited and hope I will be able to sleep. I haven’t been on a vacation for a many years. Tomorrow I’m heading to NC to visit with my daughter and son-in-love. What fun I’ve had packing. I did make a list of everything I would need so with luck I won’t forget anything.

All the edits were completed on the book on Friday and it is out to a beta readers now. When I return I’ll make any changes based on feedback, make one more run through my editing service, and do a final read through. All is on schedule for release by mid June!

I’ve spent the weekend doing fun things. Finishing two coloring pages and working a jigsaw puzzle.

Forgive the glare from the camera on the puzzle!

This one took a lot of time!
I Enjoyed coloring this pretty girl and adding the sparkles!

All these projects were very relaxing. I worked on them in the evening after spending the days on editing and decided to spend Saturday and this afternoon finishing them. I’m taking a coloring book with me to NC as my daughter is a colorist too, and has all the coloring things I might need! Looking forward to seeing the horses across the road, the goats on the hills in the back and conversation! I sure miss conversation.

This afternoon my middle daughter called and we talked for about an hour. It was great to see my close friend today and have lunch after church. She has been sick for a couple of weeks. Life sometimes gets a little lonely now that I don’t have my cat Templeton to talk to! Unless a receive a phone call many hours might pass when I don’t use my voice at all. Then when I talk I might sound like a frog croaking! LOL!

All in all, I am very grateful for the life I lead. I’m grateful for each breath I take, grateful for my salvation, and grateful for my relationship with Jesus. God has been so loving over all these almost 79 years, especially when I didn’t realize it or appreciate it! Never take for Him for granted.

I plan to keep up my blog while I’m on vacation, so expect to see pictures!

Author's Life · hobbies

Creative Minds Need More Than One Outlet

Yesterday I wrote one of the most emotional and info revealing scenes in my current book in progress. I’m always emotionally invested in my character driven stories, so writing this kind of scene always drains me emotionally and mentally. When I wrote the last word in the scene, I immediately sent the pages to my writing friend and mentor. Then I closed down the computer for a break.

This is when coloring comes into play for me. It is a stress reliever, a quiet change of pace to allow my brain to focus on a different kind of creativity. This is the coloring page I am working on. I still have to work on the gold portions of the sundial before continuing with the rest of the coloring. The colors I am using reflect the same colors I used in the opposite page which is the completed “flood of knowledge.” I like to use the same colors to make the completed book look harmonious.

Oh, and I received the feedback from my writing mentor. She told me I succeeded in showing the characters’ emotions and she liked it a lot! Whew! And the writing continues today with a fresh and rested mind.