“The LORD Himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.” Exodus 14:14 NLT
Last year I toyed with the idea of writing down things from my past I wanted my grandchildren and children to know. Things they never experienced and probably never will. However, as I tried to capture on paper the ideas in my head, they were simply facts. How could I write them in an interesting way? Instead of praying about it, I gave up.
How easily we fall into Satan’s trap of not being good enough! Since childhood, this has been a struggle for me. I spent years feeling I didn’t measure up in many ways. I was very shy. I didn’t like attention being called to me. I spent a lot of time alone.
Now that I’m older I see those signs in the younger me I didn’t recognize then as a deep need to know I was loved. This need led me to being baptized at 13. Oh, how on fire for Jesus I was then! I didn’t have a family life that centered around church. In fact, my parents never attended church or prayed with me. They refused to attend my baptism.
Over the years, I wandered off the path of following Jesus and turned to the world looking for love. I never found the love in these wrong places. It took going through a marriage that shouldn’t have happened (though four great blessings were given during that time: three beautiful girls and a beautiful son). God led me to the love of my life, a Christian man, and I finally realized the love I sought I had all along in Jesus.
My faith has increased over the years and now that I’m in the “winter” of my life, I find so much hope in studying scriptures and spending time cultivating my relationship with Jesus and getting to know God.
The victory belongs to God! And now, I’m saying yes to writing the stories of my past. I know He is providing everything I need. I still have a lot of praying to do over how much to reveal. But He will guide me. All along, through every storm, God was fighting for me. And He fights for all of us even now. He can turn seas into highways! Lifting my cup of tea while my heart is overflowing with love and gratitude. He is my rock, my salvation, my hope, my teacher, my father, and so much more!